When I stopped taking steroids after a decade I was so excited. Then I flared and took them again for several months, then got off and celebrated, excited again. After this happened a few more times I started having anxiety about taking them. Steroids are no fun. I need to reset my thinking and find a healthy way to deal with all that comes along with taking them.
Night sweats, trouble sleeping, mood swings, nutty thoughts, and trouble focusing are worth it since I can walk without a lot of pain...right?
I am taking 10-15mg daily with more here and there as needed.
This flare bites the big one. Each time I have done a yoga practice that is a bit more rigorous the next 3-4 days suck because certain joints revolt, I swell up and I have low grade fevers. I have been stubborn and wanted to do more...I need to pace myself and accept that any practice is good...good enough. Oh that phrase. Good enough...
My brain is buzzing. I was rude in a meeting this morning because I lost patience with a discussion. I can't focus and I am so tired because I am not sleeping.
I didn't do yoga last night because I was really sore from the previous night, so I did some stretches and a 15 minute meditation. I am going to start some chakra meditations since the yoga sessions I found were too advanced.
Clearly I am working for balance.